Love song

“We look at each other wondering what the other is thinking but we never say a thing.”

Why do people love to hear a love song? And when we hear it we cry, maybe tears doesn’t flow in our eyes, but deep inside we’re wounded and bleeding. For some listening to love song is a way of keeping their hearts warm, for some to reminisce the past and for some just to be felt in love. And for some is to fix a broken heart.

Why do people love to sing a love song? And when we sang it we cry, maybe tears doesn’t flow in our eyes, but deep inside we wanted to shout and say to the world that we need to be loved just like other human.  

Why do people wrote a love song and as we sang its word lyrics we cry, maybe tears doesn’t flow in our eyes, but deep inside we wanted to express, to say the words that we can’t say to the person we love.

Why do people cry when they hear a love song, is it because they felt left behind or they just felt lonely and seems like no body cares for them? Love song, Love song, Love song keep my heart bleeding.

Why do people smile or laugh and then cry, maybe tears doesn’t flow in our eyes but deep inside the happiness that we felt overflows and make our hearts, our thought and soul cry to the point that we could no longer recognize that is are just feelings that at some point it will vanished.

“All the lonely people, where do they all come from? / All the lonely people, where do they all belong?”

The party

“Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.”

@t D Mall

It is the time of year when people were overflowed with joy. Last night we celebrated our Christmas party, before that day I was on a swing shift duty and went home around four in the morning. So I told my self that tomorrow afternoon I will be going to a rush shopping to buy the clothes and shoes that I'm going to wear for the occasion. I thought this would be an easy task without help from someone. 

Then the day came and I wake up past eleven in the morning then eat breakfast and right after went to the mall. It was already past twelve noon when I left home riding my bike with a speed of 60kph/hr. At the mall I'm wandering around to look for a polo shirt or long sleeve polo. It takes an hour for me before I was able to find the best polo that is worth to spend the money that I worked for several days. Before I found this garment I already have in my mind what would be the design and color of the polo. As I go back and forth from different boutiques to the garment section I'm luckily stood up into the polo shirt section where I can choose many designs and colors. If only I have much money then possibly I bought them all.  It is worth the time I spent for it since the quality is good and the price is fair enough most of all it satisfies my expectation.

Then I went to the shoes section on the third floor of the mall, here there are several branded shoes and designs. I started to wander around looking for the best shoes and since there were too many designs I was confused which one to pick. Actually the designs are pretty much old fashion and it didn't attract me at all. Since I was tired of walking around and still can't find the shoes that I'd like, so I have had texted a friend asking for her suggestion and comments. Thanks to her and she made up my mind and given me some ideas what to do in this kind of situation. So I told my self if ever I will not be able to find a shoe then I'll be using the pair of shoes I bought last year, I only even use it twice. Then I go and forth from one boutiques to another and went back to the mall shoes section. Well there are some branded shoes that I'd like but not that much, since none of these shoes design can satisfy my wants other than that they are too expensive to spent thousands of pesos. Now I'm tired and still not able to find the pair of shoes, then I decided not to buy at all.

Last but not the least, I went to a shop where I can buy gel, perfume and handkerchief then went home.

@t D Party

So the night came and the party has started. When I was about to came up stairs I saw an old friend of mine which was so pretty with her dress. She's quite ashamed of her looked or probably she's just not use to the dress that she wears. She asked where the hall section is and I don't have idea either then I notice that it’s quite a bit noisy on the second floor so I told her it could be upstairs. So we went together and gladly it is the right room, we were actually twenty minutes late when we arrive. 

The party started with a prayer in a form of a song then followed by our Philippine national anthem. It was like the first time that I saw the video of our national anthem which shows the patriotism and heroic act that our fellow Filipino did during the war. After the general manager of the company welcome everyone and officially announce the party. The dinner was served after the management officers give their speech. The cuisines that were served aren’t tasty at all though it is better than nothing at all.  

After the dinner we went outside for picture taking it last for about thirty minutes. This is the only time I enjoyed the party. Then we went inside and the impersonation contest has started. The first group were pretty much good at impersonating the ASAP celebrity, they really got the attention of everyone. Other groups impersonate the HAGIBIS BOYS, Lady Gaga and some impersonate the manager of the company. 

One of the highlights of this event is the raffle promo; when the raffle started everyone don’t want their name to be called for the minor prize. The minor prizes are the following, back packs, umbrella and USB. Then the next sets of prizes are flat iron, oven and others. While the major prizes are canon camera, flat screen TV, sound speakers and a notebook laptop. Everyone wanted to have the notebook laptop since its price is some how expensive and that includes my self. After the raffle those names that were not called somewhat in despair. After the contest and raffle promo it was followed by awards, these awards are for those people who seemed to work hard or possibly cheated their record stats. Well anyone knows about this issue, anyways the party has ended and we went home with a friend of mine in despair. We said to ourselves that maybe we were not lucky enough to get those prizes and awards and must work hard to get it. Some other people get the major prizes at the same time get an award. Lucky for them while us who seemed to work as harder than they do just get nothing at all. 

That’s how the story goes, at first was too excited about the event and enjoyed mingling with our friends then suddenly we end up in bad mood. Well maybe there are just things that are not really for us and maybe we are not just in the right place for this achievement. No matter what we do, as long as you no longer like the company you work for, the people around you and the job that you are in then you could not be successful. Success can’t be measured by awards or prizes but it also comes in different form such as satisfying thy self and being happy on what you do.

Happiness is always a by-product.  It is probably a matter of temperament, and for anything I know it may be glandular.  But it is not something that can be demanded from life, and if you are not happy you had better stop worrying about it and see what treasures you can pluck from your own brand of unhappiness.  ~Robertson Davies

THE PLANET

“A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are.”

THE search starts here.

It was end of the month of November when I and my secondary school friends decided to visit the house of our friend who's celebrating her birthday. This event happened without any plans at all, it just that we only chits chat through facebook chat and come up with this agenda to visit her house. Actually I 'm the one who's more willing to visit her since there is this high school mate of us who's pretty and I like to see her in person and so it is like I force everyone to go to this small occasion.

The celebrant doesn't have food preparation so we just decided to contribute some amount and we bought it for food and drinks. So we went to her house at first I was hesitate to talk since we are not drunk yet and trying to get to know each other again, aside from that my girl is there ^_^.

As the time goes by and everyone feels like at ease, tipsy and comfortable with everyone. Then the conversation started with a word and the word became a phrase and the phrase became a sentence and the sentence became a paragraph. It was almost 12 midnight when the conversation became more serious,

we talked about our past, our present and what might be the future that we will end up. 

One of the interesting stories her is about the celebrants life where she was lock with a guy who's life was ruined because of forbidden drugs. It wasn't really her plan to be with this guy, it just so happen that she meets this guy through text and at some point of her life she run away. Since she has no place to go, she stays at the house of this guy. She was treated like a princess until such time the business of this guy has stop for some reason. And now this guy is trying to make a move to change his life style. He is a unsocial person, he doesn't even came out of the room when we arrive, well he might be a shy type of person or just a childish one.

So, I asked her why she still with this guy knowing that he is making her life miserable. she stop working since the guy wont find a job, she did this in order for the guy to realize that he really need to find a living and provide the daily expenses for her wife. 

Unfortunately, this guy has its pride, he won't accept jobs that has low level, such as being security, bagger etc.

So both of them has no jobs at all, what happened next is the family of the girl decided to let the boy to pursue with his study. Good for him!! At that time he has his exam and the day after I've heard from the girl that her husband was quite mad about the event and he threatened that he will make a zero on his exam.

After the long conversation I asked her how will she describe her life, she replied "It is okay though not the life that she wanted."

I have no intention to take out my story, since the conversation was pretty good, suddenly my lips spit it out my history and I just couldn't stop telling her about it. I do not know why I did it but I just want to know what her opinion is.

After she tells her story I given my opinion about the life she has. I believe that she is destined for this guy for some reason a purpose that we can't explain and understand, maybe God knows. She really doesn't really care what will people say about her life.

So the party was over and we went home, we rode a taxi cab and since my girl’s house is near we drove him off to her house first. After….At the taxi as we driving slowly to the city, we came up again of another plan to go to a bar.

So we went into the bar bought 1 set of beer and stayed there for about 20  minutes or so. Then the ladies came into our table and ask if we want to table them in. Unfortunately, since we have no money at all and besides they are not pretty we just said "NO!". The girls danced on the pole, they showed their butts and tits, its not that awesome though but at least it makes us entertained. So since the show ain't that good we decided to go out and have some food trip, then we meet some of our friends way back secondary school and we bond together.

At the food stand there were pretty babes on the next table, so we tried to seduce them and getting to know these guys. Their age is about 15-19 years old, so after we have our food we then decided to go to the nearest gasoline shop station and have another 2 bottles of beer. And since those group of babes is going to the same place also. Looking at their physical appearance I believe they are some kind of prostitutes. Knowing their status we still went there and since they have this old guy with them age around 30's he asked the girls to bond with us. Actually, in my own opinion they were actually trying to lure us and so that they can make money of us.

So, we stayed in one table and first order 1 bottle of beer, since all of the boys are tipsy we did not drink, we just let the girls drink the beer. These babes where already tipsy as well, but since they have an objective they drink.. So, the conversation just go smoothly and it is almost around 2AM in the morning .One of the guys started to make a move and asked for the number of the girl. This girl is around 17 years old and she's too young and hot. While I sat beside the other girl, she's hot and if you smell her aroma it's like heaven in hell. So what I've did is just simply touching her legs and hold her hands. This girl might have more experience with sex since I can feel it from her hands that she got callous. Well that's only my opinion. My friend text the other girl and ask "How much?" and so she replied that she is not that kind of girl. The same with the girl that sat besides me, she said that they are not like that. Since the first bottle is over, they bought the second bottle, the conversation still going well we laugh out loud and like each of us does really going well while I'm still having joy with the girl sat next to me. After a few minutes the other guy went home ahead of us since he has no luck with these pretty girls. So, we still stay there and continued with our chitchat.

Then we move to the corner of the shop since it starts to rain. I was really bothered to why such young girls like them is involved in crimes like this. So I have interview the girl next to me and asked what is her lifestyle and if she still studying or making a living. She replied that she graduated a 2 year course, I don't know if it is a lie or what. Then I asked her if she's still a virgin and she said without hesitation that she's not. So I was shock with what she said! at this age most youngster are no longer virgin is the society already that bad! I ask silently to my self. So I continued asking her. "And who was this man who taken your virginity?" she replied that it was her boy friend where their relationship last long for 3 years. So I added a followup question? Is love just all about sex? Or you just did it out of curiosity or what? She said that she was deeply in love that is why she did it.

I'd like to correct her with the thoughts that she has, but I guess she knew her self that it is not right at all then I just didn't say a word.  Since were run out of time I just did not ask more questions. Actually I'd like to know about her family background and how her parents raised her? She's really pretty and I was really attracted with her, as we say goodbye I just leave her with a kiss on the cheek and gave her a warm embrace. Then we say goodbye.

It was already morning when I arrived home and still there are still some questions on my mind and some thoughts that I was not able to spit out. I'm wondering what is it but I know to my self it is not something bad. Maybe I was just wondering to why that pretty girl went into that situation. If only their parents where good people then she will have a future.

History is important weather you like it or not you could no longer change it.

However you can still do something about the present to come up a good future

And the actions that you are about to make will determine the new history.

“If we do not know ourselves to be full of pride, ambition, lust, weakness, misery, and injustice, we are indeed blind. And if, knowing this, we do not desire deliverance, what can we say of a man...?”